Embracing the Mum Geek

I haven't been blogging that much lately. My concentration taken up by my day job, parenting, housework, trying to be a better friend and other pleasant distractions. It's not that I don't have much to say anymore, just that I'm finding it difficult to to find the time to get all my thoughts onto paper.


Of course, the shadow of Mum-guilt and anxiety hovers over me still and I feel pretty awful about the relief I have walking into the office everyday. That time where, although I never stop thinking of my kids and home pressures, I temporarily transform into an adult with a personality of my own, a persona other than 'just a mum'.


Since starting work again in November I've found that I have a little bit more to talk about than the children and the size of my wash pile. They're still my favourite and most common topic of conversation but I feel like I have more options available to me now and with that has come a small rise in confidence levels and increased motivation when it comes to being at home and enjoying the time I do have with my family.

Instead of questioning myself as much and constantly wallowing in Mum-guilt I am finding more time just for me, taking time out without the children to meet friends or maybe go to the cinema. I try not to feel overcome by remorse for wanting the odd day or night away and I'm embracing my full on geeky side and spend most of my 'free' time reading some new books, scrolling through Bookstagram and lusting over beautiful book and film related products.

Because the one thing that hasn't changed since I became a Mum is the joy I feel in escaping to another world through a book.

I find myself getting caught up in the excitement of new book releases, something I haven't been as fussed about since the last Harry Potter book came out. I'm eagerly awaiting the release of 'A Court of Frost and Starlight' by the amazing Sarah J Maas and have even joined a couple of groups on social media to discuss plot points, characters and long-awaited sex-against-the-wall-scenes. Then it'll be time for 'War Storm' by Victoria Aveyard and 'A Reaper at the Gates' by Sabaa Tahir - May is looking like a good month for reading!

None of this is particularly new, afterall, I've never really hidden my geeky side, but it does mean that you might see a few more book reviews here on the blog as I fully embrace it and work out how my sense of self works alongside the overwhelming love, pressures and responsibilities of being a wife and Mum...

Like the delights of a potty-training three year old who has just interrupted my thought process by pooping his pants whilst watching PJ Masks...

I also have lots coming up that I want to capture and write about, as well as some dated but part-drafted posts including Ollie's birthday treat to the Natural History Museum, geeky wish lists and, as always, random rambling posts attempting to make order of my nerdy mum mind!

I hope you stay-tuned!

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